Another birthday down!
I still remember the meltdowns I had at 25 and 30. No meltdown has happened…yet.
I’ll let you know on my instastories if that changes. I’ll be golden with a pint of HaloTop Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream. It’s a drug!
The sense of urgency that came with 30 has multiplied by 2x but it comes from that internal pressure to be at a certain point at this time of my life. The pressure to be perfect in whatever standards I have. It’s easier said than done but I do compare my life to where others are at or to what others are doing. It’s horrible because you sit there and wonder…
What am I doing with my life?
Where am I going with this?
How did I end up in this place?
What’s the next six months or year look like?
Is it time to shake it up again?
Where did it go wrong?
Where did it go right?
I know I am a bit psycho but, I can’t help but to think of all these questions when you see people traveling to these far away locations, having babies, getting engaged, or etc. Alas, I have to put those thoughts away because I am on my own journey. No journey is alike and, everyone is going at this thing called life in their own pace. I am right where I am meant to be or at least, that’s what I am trying to tell myself so I don’t have that meltdown.
There’s always room for improvement but I am realizing that I’ve done so many things I never thought I was capable of. It’s coming to be that time where things need to be shaken up again so I can move to the next chapter of this book. I am excited and hopeful for what this next trip around the sun will bring. Our time is limited so it’s up to each and every one of us to live and thrive instead of just survive.
off to celebrate another year on this earth.